Canyonlands in Utah
Arches National Park in Utah
Utah Salt Flats
Munib & Safa Dars
Date at Post HTX Grand Opening
That’s how I’ve been feeling lately…
And trust me, I get it. I have “it all.”
I have an amazing family, beautiful home, success, money, etc.
There’s literally no excuse to sit around and cry, but Borderline Personality Disorder isn’t really a logical thing.
It makes you see in black and white.
Love and hate.
Good and bad.
And it’s been extremely difficult few days combatting my mental illness.
I’m so tired–
I just want to be okay.
Is playing alone on the playground
I vividly remember walking around the grass, singing songs to myself, and hanging from the monkey bars—in hopes that it would help me grow big and tall.
Even at lunch time, I remember being made fun of for the “smell” of my ethnic food.
We had assigned seating, and I remember sitting next to both of my bullies—afraid to eat.
In high school, the loneliness did not go away.
I knew a lot of people, but I was close to very few.
To make things even worse, I began dating a narcissist who slowly—and manipulatively—isolated me from everyone I know.
He wanted my attention to be his—and his only—and he succeeded.
In college is when I finally felt a degree of freedom (not full freedom, but enough) to finally meet new people
I finally knew what it felt like to have a friend group, and even though I had to lie to my ex to hang out with them—
I felt like I fit in for the very first time.
I’m still friends with those girls, for now & forever, God-willing, but they’re the ones who taught me what it felt like to finally feel accepted for who I am
I’ve been doing fairly well on social media this year.
On TikTok, I have 670k+ followers
On Instagram, I have 80k+ followers
And I’m finally focusing on my blog traffic as well.
Here’s my content strategy for the end of the year:
3-6 TikTok videos per day
1 Reel per day
3+ IG stories per day
1 blog post per day
1 Quora post per day
1-10 Pinterest pins per day (beginning Nov)
1 YouTube video / podcast per week (beginning Jan)