3 Out of 10…

That’s how I’ve been feeling lately…

And trust me, I get it. I have “it all.”

I have an amazing family, beautiful home, success, money, etc.

There’s literally no excuse to sit around and cry, but Borderline Personality Disorder isn’t really a logical thing.

It makes you see in black and white.

Love and hate.

Good and bad.

And it’s been extremely difficult few days combatting my mental illness.

I’m so tired–

So depleted.

I just want to be okay.

The Only Memories I Have from Preschool & Elementary…

Is playing alone on the playground

I vividly remember walking around the grass, singing songs to myself, and hanging from the monkey bars—in hopes that it would help me grow big and tall.

Even at lunch time, I remember being made fun of for the “smell” of my ethnic food.

We had assigned seating, and I remember sitting next to both of my bullies—afraid to eat.

In high school, the loneliness did not go away.

I knew a lot of people, but I was close to very few.

To make things even worse, I began dating a narcissist who slowly—and manipulatively—isolated me from everyone I know.

He wanted my attention to be his—and his only—and he succeeded.

In college is when I finally felt a degree of freedom (not full freedom, but enough) to finally meet new people

I finally knew what it felt like to have a friend group, and even though I had to lie to my ex to hang out with them—

I felt like I fit in for the very first time.

I’m still friends with those girls, for now & forever, God-willing, but they’re the ones who taught me what it felt like to finally feel accepted for who I am

My Daily/Weekly Content Strategy

I’ve been doing fairly well on social media this year.

On TikTok, I have 670k+ followers

On Instagram, I have 80k+ followers

And I’m finally focusing on my blog traffic as well.

Here’s my content strategy for the end of the year:

3-6 TikTok videos per day

1 Reel per day

3+ IG stories per day

1 blog post per day

1 Quora post per day

1-10 Pinterest pins per day (beginning Nov)

1 YouTube video / podcast per week (beginning Jan)