I’m usually an open book, but there’s one thing I haven’t talked about yet…
It’s not because I’m ashamed or worried about what people might think
It’s because I genuinely don’t understand what is going on or why, so I hope that by talking about this publicly, I might be able to get some answers:
I sometimes feel like I’m someone else
Like literally–an identity that is entirely different than my own
I’m a Pakistani-American Muslim girl that lives in Texas, has a toddler, and is happily. married, but often, I’ll experience intense flashes of someone else’s life, which will last sometimes a few seconds to a few hours:
An extremely introverted teenage boy (caucasian) who lives with an alcoholic / abusive single father
A different gender. A different race. A different family dynamic.
We literally don’t have any similarities, yet from time to time, It’ll be like I’m seeing through his eyes. I’m experiencing something even though I’m not there…
I know this sounds crazy, and maybe that’s just it.
Maybe I’m literally insane, but there has to be a better explanation than that.
Who is he?
I don’t believe in past lives, but it sure as hell feels like one.
I’ve been seeing these flashes of his life since high school–so intensely in fact that I wrote an entire book based on his character
I used to think it was just a character I made up in my head, but it feels like so much more. It feels like I am him–but I’m also me. It’s hard to explain.
Is he even real?
I don’t know, and so far, my therapist doesn’t have a solid explanation for this either.
But it’s something we are going to explore deeper next time we talk.